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.:stand in the rain:.

[if i could, i would tell you how i feel]


What the World Needs Is Edward
kris and junior love
look_2thesky
Ok so...thought:

Where are all of the Edward Cullens in this world? It seems like no matter how hard you look, they are no where to be found; and even if you think you've found your Edward, he could completely turn out to not be an Edward at all. Bam. Dreams crushed. Seriously, I know that the men in books and movies are hardly ever real, but all of members of the male species can't possibly all be that horrible. Somewhere, there just has to be a few Edwards, right?

So here, is my list...a compilation of some of the best ficticious men known to us.

Ron Weasley, for his caring and just plain adorable dispostion. He's a little selfish and hot-headed sometimes, but who isn't?
Maxwell Smart--intelligent, modest, a gentleman.
Dean Winchester--BAMF. But seriously, he's rugged and just plain hot. Who doesn't want that?
Howl the Powerful Wizard has a moving castle, and if that isn't enough reason, he's the hottest Japanese cartoon character I've ever seen and that counts for something. He's also a bit selfish and he took his own heart out with a fire demon, but all together, he's a good guy.
Dr. John Carter--GORGEOUS, saves lives...selfless to an extreme, smart
Cole Turner--yeah, he's a demon...who cares? He's frickin' hot, and let's not forget to mention uh...compationate, rugged and extremely protective.
Tim 'the Tool Man' Taylor--not the brightest bulb in the box, a tad bit clumsy, but all in all a really, really good guy who loves his wife, his family, and his friends and has a great sense of humor.
Fox Mulder--funny, witty, sexy, acts  on his gut feelings, isn't afraid to take a chance and loves his woman with every fiber in his being.
Special Agent Booth--again..like Mulder, he's attractive and funny. He's protective of those he loves (Bones..a hem ahem) and passionate about what he does.

and finally...

Edward Cullen
--well, ok he. is. a. vampire. he sparkles in the sunlight. protective is his frickin' middle name and the words 'deeply and truly in love' don't even begin to cover it. a true gentleman, through and through, and considerate and polite and god, i just don't even know how else to describe. [Stephanie Meyer is a genius. plain and simple. She knew EXACTLY what kind of guys us women fell for and made the main character of her books the most stunningly perfect man we've ever seen. basically.]


urbandictionary.com
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Rules
a) Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
b) Post your favorite definition it gives you -- or just post the first one. (or multiple answers if it's just too funny)
c) Tag 10 people including the person that tagged you.
d) Those people, if so inspired, should do the same. (just copy/paste and change answers)



1) Your Name?  Molly
a very beautiful girl, also thought of as perfect, very athletic, and fun to be around, she is smart, and is loved by many, she has low-self confidence, but doesn't realize that people think very highly of her, she is amazing in every way, and has a bitch for a sister

person 1: that girls lucky shes a molly

person 2: yeah but her sisters a bitch





2) Your age? 19
To "be 19", or to have "gone 19" essentially means that something has gone wrong, is just plain weird, or is inexplicable. Derived from Stephen King's 'Dark Tower' series. Its true meaning, if anything more than a motif, has yet to be revealed.

"Welcome to the 19th level of The Dark Tower."

"The whole fucking world has gone 19."


3) Your favorite drink? Mountain Dew
The essence of life.

Mountain Dew will make you live a long and healthy life. It also prevents most forms of stupidity.
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4) Favorite color? Blue
 
The feeling when u wake up at 7 in the morning and remembering it's a monday.

"i got the monday blues"



5) Birthplace? Minneapolis
 
1. State...ass
2. Hell of a lot better than Wisconsin, but then again Wisconsin is better than Mighigan (Detroit is a Minneapolis wannabe)
3. California shopping my ass, we have the biggest mall in the country...suck it
4. Nice people
5. Better weather
6. Best schools (No really, best rated)

Shitty Little Kid: Mom, why are we going to Minnesota
Mom: Umm, because it's like the best place ever.

 
 

 


6) Month of your birth? April
 
derived from a month, used by parents who lacked creativity at the time of their daughters arrival
'gee, i just gave birth, what month is it again?... April you say..'


7) Where you live now? minnesota
 The land of 3 seasons: winter, summer and road construction.

"the gophers just beat the hawkeyes, so i teabaged some iowan"


8) Your super power if you had super powers? freeze time
 
The ability to move objects solely with the power of the mind. Seen in zillions of suspense, horror and sci-fi movies and books, but there's yet no proof it exists in real life.
Wilma: Nicky, would you get me the second volume of the Kinsey report on the top shelf?

Nicky: Get me a ladder then! I can't reach that high, what do you think, I've got telekinesis or something?



wow.
wall-e
look_2thesky
phew..welcome to the other side of my angst.
ok, so im still not in the most wonderful mood that can possibly be, but i did have quite the amazing dream that i just snapped out of about 15 minutes ago, so the day has started pretty well in my view

i wish dreaming was a premonition of what was to come in the future...you know? this dream was just what i've been wanting to happen with this guy..we went out and stayed at his house and yeah wow it was just amazing. we were just together...hanging out. he showed me like old movies of himself when he was kid and stuff. :) ahh...
and then yeah, there was some weird crap, but that has to be expected. something about an old man and the house fell out of the sky or something...and then a kid i graduated with (i think) lived there too but he was in a wheelchair. so that was strange...but the rest makes me smile.

i guess i can just hope that this is what is to come in the future...or what i need to fight for even harder right now. *sigh*.

feeling via song lyrics...gotta love 'em
life
look_2thesky
im a wreck right now...ugh.
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you chat to me like we connect
but i dont even know if we're still friends
it's so confusing
understanding you is making me not want to do
the things that i know i should do
but i trip fast and then i lose
and i hate looking like a fool

the lights are on and someone's home
but i'm not sure if they're alone
there's someone else inside my head
living there to fill me with dread
this paranoia is distressing
and i've spent most of my time guessing
are we not, are we together?
will this make our lives much better?

[pumpkin soup, kate nash]
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take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on me
take time to realize that i am on you side
didn't i, didn't i tell you?
but i cant spell it out for you
and no, it's never gonna be that simple
no i cant spell it out for you...
if you just realize what i just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other
take time to realize all this can pass you by
didnt i tell you?
but it's not the same
no, it's never the same if you don't feel it too
if you would meet me half way
it could be the same for you
if you just realize....


[realize, colbie collait]
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you waved your hand and it was done
said let it be and there it was
a mountain so high it broke through the sky
a canyon so deep it'd bring a man to his knees
i've seen what you can do
i've seen you make miracles
and hopeless dreams come true
you made the heavens and the stars,
everything, come on how hard can it be
to make [him] love me?


[to make her love me, rascal flatts]
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some days i feel like cryin
dont matter if it's rain or shine
i feel like my heart was broken at least a million times
some days i wake up dreaming
feels like i never even woke
some days i feel like singing


[have it all, jeremy kay]
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i, i dont know why
why you need some reason to feel lost inside
you, you know that im alright
you know im just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles
you wanna help me
just let me cry
yeah, i love you in my life
you dont even know a thing i feel inside
know by the look in my eye
that im just fine but i might need you to hold me tight
i've had a bad day, i'll cry if i want to


[just let me cry, ashely simpson]
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well no sir, no i dont wanna be the blame, not anymore
it's your turn, to take a seat we're settling the final score
and why do we like to hurt so much
and i cant decide, you have made it harder just to go on
and why all the possibilities, well i was wrong
i wonder how am i supposed to feel when you're not here
'cause i burned every bridge i ever built when you were here
i still try holding on to silly things i never learn oh why...
all the possibilities, im sure you've heard
that's what you get when you let your heart win
i drown out all my sense with the sounds of its beating
and thats what you get when you let your heart win

[that's what you get, paramore]
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i've got a lot to say to you
yeah i've got a lot to say
i notice you're eyes are always glued to me
keeping them here and it makes no sense at all
if you wanna play it like a game
well come on come on lets play
'cause i'd rather waste my life pretending
than have to forget you for one whole minute


[crushcrushcrush, paramore]
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if the heart is always searching
can you ever find a home
i've been looking for that someone
dreams cant take the place of loving you
there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true
when you look me in the eyes
everythings alright when you're right here by my side
i catch a glimpse of heaven
i'll find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes
how long i will i be waiting
to be with you again
im gonna tell you that i love you in the best way that i can
i cant take a day without you here
you're the light that makes my darkness disappear

[when you look me in the eyes, jobros]
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i wandered through fiction to look for the truth
burried beneath all the lies
and i stood at a distance to feel who you are
hiding myself in your eyes
and hold on before it's too late
until we leave this behind
dont fall just be who you are
its all that we need in our lives
now the risk that might break you's the one that could save
a life you dont live is still lost
so stand on the edge with me
hold back your fears with me
nothing is real til its gone
so live like you mean it
love til you feel it
its all that we need in our lives
hold on before it's too late <3


[before it's too late, goo goo dolls]
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it all comes down to this
you take your best shot might miss
you take it anyway you're gonna make your move today
got the will, you'll find a way
grab this moment before it's gone
today's your day
it's on
and the view will never change
unless you decide to change it
dont feel like it today
you show up anyways
and life will take you down
it only matters if you let it
todays your day
it's on

[it's on, superchick]
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feels like the weight of the world
like god in heaven gave me a turn
dont cling to me, i swear i cant fix you
still in the dark can you fix me
if you love me than let go of me
i wont be held down by who i used to be
she's nothing to me
feels like the weight of the world
like all my screaming has gone unheard
and oh i know you dont believe in me
safe in the dark how can you see?
free fall, free fall all through life

[weight of the world, evanescence]
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will there really be a morning
is there such a thing as day
could i see it from the mountains
if i were as tall as they
has it feet like water lilies
has it feathers like a bird
is it brought from famous countries
of which i have never heard
oh some scholar
oh some sailor
oh some wise man from the sky
please to tell a little pilgrim
where the place called morning lies
morning, morning
where does morning lie?

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i love music. seriously.


Soundtrack to my Life...
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look_2thesky
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
I Got Nerve

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Billy S.

"WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ultimate

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Without You

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
I'm Already There

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Waterfalls

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Here In Your Arms

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Ain't No Other Man

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I Hope You Dance

WHAT IS 2+2?
New Soul

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
No Limit

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Nothin' To Lose

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Take Me or Leave Me

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
My Independence Day

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I Love You

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Irresistable

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Open Up Your Eyes

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Me Vs. The World

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Life is a Highway

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Jessie's Girl (hahaha omg. wow.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Johnny and June

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Gotta Tell You

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
I'm With You

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
I Don't Have to be Me (Till Monday)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Beauty From Pain

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Something Worth Leaving Behind

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
At the Beginning

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Hated

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Don't Stop Believin' (LOL)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Broken

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Before He Cheats (.....)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fall For You
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suckage.
snape bring it
look_2thesky
This weekend didnt turn out to be any better than the last, quite honestly. Friday night i was at a party and a girl was raped. i was the only one with a car willing to take her to the ER and so i did...and sat there for 6 hours. 2:30am-7:30am. yeah. great. had to talk to the cops and all that. it was not fun. i was so tired the next day...i wanted to go out again last night because, well, its homecoming...but i figured it i wanted to actually be alive today i should just stay home and get some sleep.

i slept until 1pm today.

now im wide awake. oh well.

im still frustrated as ever about my friend and her fiance...he's living there now, even though the conditions on which he was released specifically say he may not talk to, see, or contact her in any way. its a bunch of BS if you ask me. like, you cant take 2 weeks to not see each other? seriously? i guess, whatever...they'll do what they will. i just hope he doesnt get caught. because if he does, well, he'll be in jail. *shrugs*. is it bad that part of me hopes he does? :/

I need this week to be over as soon as possible. Because im spending the weekend at home...and i cannot wait. i need to get away from here; i need some time away from this place and the people here. it's funny...it was exactly the opposite over the summer. i guess the shit follows you wherever you go. and there was a lot of it going on this summer too...huh. i came to winona for a weekend to take a break, sort it all out. now im doing it again, just backwards. who would have thought.

*sigh*
bed?
maybe.
writing?
.....
definitely.

- - - -
update for KTF readers...(if any even read this):

currently battling more writers block..surprise surprise. i made some headway though tonight, so hopefully the chap. should be up within the week. :D thanks for being patient, as always.

Just Numb
life
look_2thesky
I dont know why it matters that I write this, no one will read it. But maybe it will make me feel better or something.

Today I was supposed to go wedding dress shopping with my friend who is getting married...but last night her fiance (now ex fiance) was put in jail for assulting her. I couldnt and still cant believe it. They seemed like such a perfect couple and so happy too. I was going to be a bridesmaid. She was really happy...so in love. This makes me question right now if there is any hope for love at all. I was with her nearly all day today; I layed with her while she was feeling depressed and crying and while her mom and grandparents and TIMS family called her every single chance possible. I finally got her out of the house around 3 for a little food...but it was short lived I guess.

Right now I just feel numb. I was sitting here in my living room thinking about everything...oh and before this, one of my best friends and I were having a row about this guy situation of mine...she is toally weirded out, like I think I've said before, but this was really really bad. Needless to say, I felt like shit about it and anyways, I just wanted to cry, but I couldnt do it. And then out of nowhere, I realized that I wasn't feeling a single thing. Normally when I think about him, my insides get all jumbled up and I cant think properly...but right then, it was just like..nothing. No reaction whatsoever. At first I was thinking, wow. I just got over him...

But that can't be it
Feelings like that just dont disappear into thin air.

Anyways, I talked to a few people about it and after a lot of talking I think we've decided that the world is just fucking us all over today. Seriously, I just talked to about 6 people in the span on 24 hours who are having a shitty time with life right now. Not cool.

Ok, I cant write any more right now. I need sleep. Hopefully tommorrow this will all be better.

Today
kris and junior love
look_2thesky
Today was pretty long and pretty uneventful.

I did maybe...an hour's worth of homework, which is a sharp contrast to yesterday in which I somehow managed like, 8 hours of studying. Yeahhhh...not sure where that came from. After classes I went home for about an hour, watched Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves with my roommates and then went to Courtney's house [bestie :)] after which we went to Culvers (delicious, even though I so can't afford to be eating out right now...), and then to the gas station to visit another friend, and THEN took her adorable doggies for a walk.

When I came home, the two roommates that were here were watching Zoolander, so I settled down with my history book, but of course, did not read it as the movie obviously demanded my full attention. Now, as it is plain, I am not doing my homework, and I am going to fail at life. Grrreat.

This weekend is going to have to be homework-filled. Well, at least Saturday is. Friday I've got major plans...and Sunday I'm going to Rochester with Courtney to look at more dresses for her wedding! So excited for this wedding oh man. I've never been a bridesmaid before...just a flower girl like, twice, I think. So this is gonna be pretty awesome.

Woo...so, I think I'll go write a wee bit. Clears the head, you know...


::Night::


Hangovers suck. Period.
sky
look_2thesky
    The title's pretty self-explanatory. But I guess that's the indicator that the party must have been a good one, right?

Indeed, this one was pretty good. Let's nevermind the fact that I foolishly downed a 6-pack of beer in a lot smaller amount of time than I should have. You would think I would know better by now...

At least I didn't get sick. I can be thankful for that.

I also didn't sleep last night...I basically went to bed for the first time at 1PM TODAY. And only slept for about 3 1/2 hours. Don't ask me why I'm till standing up at this point...I should be dead tired right now. Why, you might ask, did I not sleep last night? Well, cliffnotes version: I did sort of sleep from about 2am-3am...but then I was rudely awakened by my friends practically crying about God and religion...yeah. And the lights were all on and my head felt like it was going to basically explode. Awesome, right? So then I gave up on sleeping all together and while the rest of them sought sleep around 6am, I  couldn't for some reason. Possibly because of the stuffed up breathing next to me on the air mattress. Nevertheless, I didn't sleep. Then everyone was up and about at around 7-8am...we watched Californication for about 4 hours straight...yum...and then left for home. Needless to say, I crashed the near moment I got in.

Actually, my dad called me right as I was getting into bed, wondering if he woke me up. I responded something like, "No, Dad, actually I haven't been to sleep yet."

He, of course, knew immediately why...damn...and then asked me how the party was. I said it was good and it wasn't huge or anything. His response: "Oh, so not like an orgy or anything then...ok."

Sometimes I wonder about that man.

I've successfully not done ANY homework whatsoever this weekend. I'm quite proud. This week I suppose I'll just have to dive into it guns blazing and hope I come out alive on the other side...aka: Friday. It seems so far away right now...blah.

Ok. I'm gonna go crash. Hope I wake up on time tomorrow...

Night.

I ....
sky
look_2thesky
I saw this and decided to do it because...well, one: it was something to do, and two: i think it helps my writing because I forced myself to think more critically to give better, true answers.

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I Live ~ for myself, as well as for others.

I Work ~ for income to support myself.

I Talk ~ too much sometimes.

I Wish ~ I could say what I feel.

I Enjoy ~ being with my horse because he’ll never judge me

I Look ~ to the bright side when I can

I Find ~ joy in the simple things.

I Listen ~ when I’m pretending I’m not.

I Hide ~ from the truth.

I Pray ~ when I’m afraid and when I am happy.

I Walk ~ when I need time to think.

I Write ~ because I am passionate about it.

I See ~ that there are some things I can’t change.

I Sing ~ a lot.

I Laugh ~ because it feels good

I Can ~ do anything if I put my mind to it.

I Watch ~ out for my friends

I Learn ~ from my mistakes

I Dream ~ about what I want to happen in my life.

I Want ~ life and love to be easier, but it never will be.

I Cry ~ out of fear and sadness; sometimes frustration and anger

I Burnt ~ myself more times than I can count at work this summer

I Read ~ Harry Potter because I am obsessed ;)

I Love ~ my friends and my family

I Sometimes ~ jump to conclusions

I Hurt ~ when I think of the things I want, but can’t have.

I Fear ~ rejection.

I Hope ~ for love

I Break ~ when I try to do too much at once

I Eat ~ way more than I should

I Quit ~ putting up with bullshit a long time ago. Well, most of it.

I Bathe ~ because not bathing is disgusting.

I Drink ~ when the occasion demands it.

I Save ~ the best for last

I Hug ~ my friends because I love them!

I Meditate ~ when I know I have a lot to think about.

I Miss ~ home and the people there.

I Hold ~ out for that one

I Forgive ~ but sometimes do not forget that easily

I Drive ~ sometimes for no reason at all. It clears my head.

I Have ~ no real idea of what direction I want my life to go in

I Don't ~ want to be alone for the rest of my life

I Make ~ a mess of things from time to time

I Kiss ~ the ones I love

I Believe ~ in my own destiny

I Feel ~ when I cannot speak

I Know ~ that things will be better in the end

I Wonder ~ if he feels the way I do.

<3
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